Monday 14 November 2011

Love + Trust = ?






world (:

Justice juz could nt exist .
so do Love
once u said it , it wont chance .
once u mean it , u cant regret .

Trust was the most important matter in Love .
totally important .
Trust was like a piece of paper , once crumbled , it wont b perfect anymore .


after a few days end this relationship , the girl was so sad .
thinking bec all her stories wv her loves one..all was END . it ends..
she said to herself tat she wil learn frm this n wish the guy wil learn frm they mistakes too.
it started whn she loses her trust after she 1st saw something tat nt should she see .
it was something tat made her trust melt .

 she saw all this wv her eyes n she told herself , "let it Vonn..just 4get it..u was juz click somethg wrg mayb.."
her heart was like "i noe he was hot , n girls loves him + flirt him...but he did promises me tat only love me one..only me ! ...  but y he look nice wv those girls ? he replies every of her messajes . i never knew y he did tat unless he was reali a familiar person..n he kinda kind wv all girls.. Von juz keep it..dun make thgs worst !"
her heart was so mad actuali,she was sad too...sad cuz she dun even know y to deal it wv correct ways.
but she ended up keeping it frm her loves one..

but her emotion was scrubble..so she was like rarely find her loves one after tat day..
so,one day Von's guy,Kelton find her.He ask her whother she was busy ? look like so many days missing frm him.. Von was like stun to answer him...she juz say,No i'm nt.. Kelton was like nothing n he started his humour n make jokes wv Von..hahha..Kelton was making lame jokes like wv usual couples talking craps n his questions suddenly make Von think abt the thg she saw few days ago n she answer Kelton seriously.
Kelton get her answer n he was like WTF ?! hw she noe tat ! Many questions grows in Kelton's mind thought then... he straight ask Von , "hw u get all those news uhh ?" Von answer him cooly,u gave me all the stuff n i was click somethg wrg n i saw it..... cn u xplain all this ?

Kelton was stun.he stop his conversation.and after a few hours Von opn bec was she saw,and she got error whn opn it..and she realises Kelton close it or else was private it.
she was mad , damn hell mad ! she sms Kelton n ask "Y u do tiz ? u close it ?"
slightly Kelton replies "Yes,i did tat girl.i'm sorry 2 let u c all this.i close it cuz i felt i shouldn't let u get all this earlier..i'm sorry girl..i juz love u one n no others..i swear."
Von asked him "so y u wanna close it ? so tat i cant prove tat u did tat ? or u n tat girl was having own honeymoon ? u juz cant believe tat !"
Von was fucking angry was in her anger.n Kelton juz cooly answered her "i'm juz telling u d truth.if u dun trust..i cant force u..i reali love u !"
Von was crying lonely in her situation dealing all her stuff..she trust Kelton so much until reali hurt herself ? 
this was da question... Trust too much would make problems ? or trust was da problem ?

Von just hold all her problems n keep frm Kelton..she did love Kelton.so she juz day by day do like she reali 4get all this..n one day Kelton find her agn..n they nvr argue.Kelton trying 2 cheer Von.n Von gv some gud reaction 2 him either..
but months to months , Von n Kelton was juz like the wind n time passing.. they nvr chat so hapi anymore . juz few times was yes..

Time passing so faz...Months pass by..n one day,the day Von was working,Kelton find her agn n get some chat.. Kinda cool chat .
Kelton was tat day aim to get bec the gud memories wv Von.. n he told Von tat he wanna everythg settle 2day . He don't wanna pass by like this.. Questions grows in Kelton's mind n started ask her serious questions..but he apologize 1st..
til the part..Kelton said "u reali meant it ?" Von 1st was giving Kelton a chance agn 2 choose between End or no . then Kelton ask Von to do tat decision cuz she gave him chances so many times..n nw is her turn..
Von was thinking so deep n she reali love him n nvr thinks 2 leave him..but she decided last...Break da relationship..  


it Ends ....




Von hav her own reasons 4 breaking her relationship.. cuz .
she love Kelton . she wanna gv Kelton freedom in his heart , loving her was making him suffer .. 
and she hope she nvr make Kelton suffer loving her.. so let off her was da best decision . ( at tat time )
cuz Von love him so much n so do Kelton .
but they ended wv tolerance wv heart loving each other .
is tiz fair enuf ? loving n ended up in such decision ?

After tat..Von cried for so many hours althought working..she was holding so hard.. n finally cant make it up.. her True Love was worth ? 
nw everyday she was crying 4 missing the guy she loved..n nw too..
but Kelton was dissappear . Von suffering all her True-ness .
Blame fate ? or Blame herself ?







Answer was just inside urself .




Saturday 12 November 2011

Friday 11 November 2011

11.11.11

How it was ?
juz a simple day wv a beautiful date .

nvr eat dinner yt 
tumblring n blogging 
listening to beautiful songs 

World was so beautiful n i realise it . (:


i cn feel it but i could hold it .
was a sad thg in life .
just watch it moving n acting infront of me , 
waO ! unfair ! 

i couldnt say anythg 2 get it if i doesn't deserve enuf 4 it .

i understand .

haha
sometimes feel self so stupid of thinking n reminding self abt the useless memories tat wouldn't cum bec ···
but it stil stick on mind larr.. 

hard 2 4get whn reali get deep hurt .
scar . deep scar .
cuz i reali love tat ppl .

tat fello said i nvr love tat fello otherwise love my ex ?

fine ··
as long i noe i love U dude . (':


tats most important . 



i rmb , i noe , i realise , i feel it .
enuf ?

it was awful painess i admit .
tat so wrg till i cant even opn my heart n leave it .

if i didn't . i wont drop my tears even think or reminded even abt..
juz think yr name if was enuf . cry life hell . 
i swear i didn't cry like tat after the day i break wv u n the day i fight wv my mum til next day i get out of my house without telling anyone abt it .
i did tat dude..tat was da day i reali need u .
but i came out without my phone n just got few money wv me.

childish ?
but i'm serious .
end wad i too love my mum . i bec . 
i noe it couldnt solve anythg. cuz of emotion on condition i did it..
i changed my mind dude.. tat time did think abt wad u told me .

becum a gud girl . 

i bec (:
i dwn u think i reali naughty n over til tiz limit dude.. 


(:

i hope u saw wad i wanna tel u .
all tiz i wrote i dun care hu ever say bad thgs here -.-
i juz care ur eye 2 watch it n understand it.. 


otherwise i hope v can chat or hang out one day...cuz soon u'll going outstation..i couldn't c u agn.. 



FATE was meant . 
i hav 2 accept it.. 

I LOVE U .