26/11

2011 gonna over soon ~

hav some fun b4 the sch eve . ARGHH !

Christmas nite went McD wv 3 buddies after work 2 release ma tireness 

n 2day get up early 4 jog wv same 3 buddies n go swimming with'em n some others buddies too :D  ♥

GOD imma damn TIRED ! :OO  

ply-ing in da water for abt 6hours more -3- since mornin LOL

cant breath well cuz of lung problem -.- i guess cuz i took too much of cigg .__.

hu cares ? I'm HAVING FUN !  ♥

Stop ==

i felt flooding HAHAHAHA !!! XDDD

turns dark after 1/4 of a day in da water dude --

Red dark face in condition nw hahah 

anyway im having fun wv correct ppl naww (: never regret (:

mayb think alot abt those stuff , but stil much more 2 come next . 

life is busy enuf of future plans n nt da past (: 

i did wrg agn & agn in d past . i wish i gonna change it so well n true :\

Imma fucking regret cuz of tat stuff , itz fucking damn REGRET ! 

btw , frens . stop asking me those question i dun even reali wanna ans u naww . 

i ans u honestly , but i dun ned next ppl wv same suck fucking damn question k ? 

ur problem , my problem , ownself solve for ownself (: 

i dun care hw great r u or hw bad i m naww . juz get lost frm me .

nvr the old but the latest (; ♥

so , shut off ur ass if u dun like it . i never care ur opinion in negative sense in ur own mind . (:

i dun ned 2 talk more here naww . itz juz a gossip around those bitches yeahh.

LOL ?
mind of ur own business dude ! u dun get great 2 c ur own excess n other's lacks . 

rmb tat ! 

2011 end wv my pleasure by passing those sucks days / it never return 2 me bec anymore 

(:   

hapi days to my pleasure viewer ;) stay positive HERE .

Love + Trust = ?

world (:

Justice juz could nt exist .

so do Love . 

once u said it , it wont chance .

once u mean it , u cant regret .

Trust was the most important matter in Love .

totally important .

Trust was like a piece of paper , once crumbled , it wont b perfect anymore .

after a few days end this relationship , the girl was so sad .

thinking bec all her stories wv her loves one..all was END . it ends..

she said to herself tat she wil learn frm this n wish the guy wil learn frm they mistakes too.

it started whn she loses her trust after she 1st saw something tat nt should she see .

it was something tat made her trust melt .

 she saw all this wv her eyes n she told herself , "let it Vonn..just 4get it..u was juz click somethg wrg mayb.."

her heart was like "i noe he was hot , n girls loves him + flirt him...but he did promises me tat only love me one..only me ! ...  but y he look nice wv those girls ? he replies every of her messajes . i never knew y he did tat unless he was reali a familiar person..n he kinda kind wv all girls.. Von juz keep it..dun make thgs worst !"

her heart was so mad actuali,she was sad too...sad cuz she dun even know y to deal it wv correct ways.

but she ended up keeping it frm her loves one..

but her emotion was scrubble..so she was like rarely find her loves one after tat day..

so,one day Von's guy,Kelton find her.He ask her whother she was busy ? look like so many days missing frm him.. Von was like stun to answer him...she juz say,No i'm nt.. Kelton was like nothing n he started his humour n make jokes wv Von..hahha..Kelton was making lame jokes like wv usual couples talking craps n his questions suddenly make Von think abt the thg she saw few days ago n she answer Kelton seriously.

Kelton get her answer n he was like WTF ?! hw she noe tat ! Many questions grows in Kelton's mind thought then... he straight ask Von , "hw u get all those news uhh ?" Von answer him cooly,u gave me all the stuff n i was click somethg wrg n i saw it..... cn u xplain all this ?

Kelton was stun.he stop his conversation.and after a few hours Von opn bec was she saw,and she got error whn opn it..and she realises Kelton close it or else was private it.

she was mad , damn hell mad ! she sms Kelton n ask "Y u do tiz ? u close it ?"
slightly Kelton replies "Yes,i did tat girl.i'm sorry 2 let u c all this.i close it cuz i felt i shouldn't let u get all this earlier..i'm sorry girl..i juz love u one n no others..i swear."

Von asked him "so y u wanna close it ? so tat i cant prove tat u did tat ? or u n tat girl was having own honeymoon ? u juz cant believe tat !"

Von was fucking angry was in her anger.n Kelton juz cooly answered her "i'm juz telling u d truth.if u dun trust..i cant force u..i reali love u !"
Von was crying lonely in her situation dealing all her stuff..she trust Kelton so much until reali hurt herself ? 

this was da question... Trust too much would make problems ? or trust was da problem ?

Von just hold all her problems n keep frm Kelton..she did love Kelton.so she juz day by day do like she reali 4get all this..n one day Kelton find her agn..n they nvr argue.Kelton trying 2 cheer Von.n Von gv some gud reaction 2 him either..

but months to months , Von n Kelton was juz like the wind n time passing.. they nvr chat so hapi anymore . juz few times was yes..

Time passing so faz...Months pass by..n one day,the day Von was working,Kelton find her agn n get some chat.. Kinda cool chat .

Kelton was tat day aim to get bec the gud memories wv Von.. n he told Von tat he wanna everythg settle 2day . He don't wanna pass by like this.. Questions grows in Kelton's mind n started ask her serious questions..but he apologize 1st..

til the part..Kelton said "u reali meant it ?" Von 1st was giving Kelton a chance agn 2 choose between End or no . then Kelton ask Von to do tat decision cuz she gave him chances so many times..n nw is her turn..
Von was thinking so deep n she reali love him n nvr thinks 2 leave him..but she decided last...Break da relationship..  

it Ends ....

Von hav her own reasons 4 breaking her relationship.. cuz .

she love Kelton . she wanna gv Kelton freedom in his heart , loving her was making him suffer .. 

and she hope she nvr make Kelton suffer loving her.. so let off her was da best decision . ( at tat time )
cuz Von love him so much n so do Kelton .

but they ended wv tolerance wv heart loving each other .

is tiz fair enuf ? loving n ended up in such decision ?

After tat..Von cried for so many hours althought working..she was holding so hard.. n finally cant make it up.. her True Love was worth ? 

nw everyday she was crying 4 missing the guy she loved..n nw too..
but Kelton was dissappear . Von suffering all her True-ness .
Blame fate ? or Blame herself ?

Answer was just inside urself .

Inspires me 2day ·

不屬於我的淚 (':

            http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0eNmgkeh3

A Thousand Years ♥

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rtOvBOTyX00&ob=av2e

Love U a thousand years  ♥

孫耀威 ·^·

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ne5SXhUnFxM&feature=mfu_in_order&list=UL

it was beautiful if v r still 2gether (':

Today My Life Begins

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YAq9ZUTo1Dc

inspires me =D

When You Are Lonely 

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fH0rRn8_W_U

blame me nw (: 

Tomorrow

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-zU4Mj9dpUI

no tomorrow ··· 

It Will Rain (':
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=W-w3WfgpcGg&feature=player_embedded

11.11.11

How it was ?

juz a simple day wv a beautiful date .

nvr eat dinner yt 

tumblring n blogging 

listening to beautiful songs 

World was so beautiful n i realise it . (:


i cn feel it but i could hold it .

was a sad thg in life .

just watch it moving n acting infront of me , 

waO ! unfair ! 

i couldnt say anythg 2 get it if i doesn't deserve enuf 4 it .

i understand .

haha

sometimes feel self so stupid of thinking n reminding self abt the useless memories tat wouldn't cum bec ···

but it stil stick on mind larr.. 

hard 2 4get whn reali get deep hurt .

scar . deep scar .

cuz i reali love tat ppl .

tat fello said i nvr love tat fello otherwise love my ex ?

fine ··

as long i noe i love U dude . (':


tats most important . 

i rmb , i noe , i realise , i feel it .

enuf ?

it was awful painess i admit .

tat so wrg till i cant even opn my heart n leave it .

if i didn't . i wont drop my tears even think or reminded even abt..

juz think yr name if was enuf . cry life hell . 

i swear i didn't cry like tat after the day i break wv u n the day i fight wv my mum til next day i get out of my house without telling anyone abt it .

i did tat dude..tat was da day i reali need u .

but i came out without my phone n just got few money wv me.

childish ?

but i'm serious .

end wad i too love my mum . i bec . 

i noe it couldnt solve anythg. cuz of emotion on condition i did it..

i changed my mind dude.. tat time did think abt wad u told me .

becum a gud girl . 

i bec (:

i dwn u think i reali naughty n over til tiz limit dude.. 

(:

i hope u saw wad i wanna tel u .

all tiz i wrote i dun care hu ever say bad thgs here -.-

i juz care ur eye 2 watch it n understand it.. 

otherwise i hope v can chat or hang out one day...cuz soon u'll going outstation..i couldn't c u agn.. 

FATE was meant . 

i hav 2 accept it.. 

I LOVE U .  ♥

12.20AM

:)

Hapi 2day ?

YesH !

mayb juz a while hapiness ,

it was enuf , i guess :)

watched Johnny English ^_^

it was my movie last week actuali ==

the 1st day purpose 2 watch it on da 1st day of da movie's opening day .

missed it cuz places were full last week -.-"

haha ^_^

nvm anyway :D

i still watch it 2day :)

juz unsatisfied wv the Korea Music Wave Concert . 

cant even watch it.. :(

missed out my favourite showcase too , ShowdownFest ! ==

GOSH ! 

Totally missed it in 1 day . 

-

yeahh ·

I'm Fine :)

actuali was thinking alot 

dun understand y thrs so lot 2 make my life scrubble so much.. 

i'm still finding smthg 2 make myself alive in heart .

or should call opn my heart ··

1 funnie thg was ,

i will powerless 2 do smthg /weak to do 

whn i'm reali thinking those freaking thgs . =X

i was like taking hard 2 walk == 

just nw was like hell ·

luckily i did walking normally infront of my frens . 

MaXx was senseless ? 

she should b strong ' 

:)

she tried n oso wil do it in future :)

she will . 

U ?

他不回我信

我都会等 ·

mayb i'm stupid .

but i'm making sense of wad my heart calling 2 do .

juz for a ppl tat juz reali important 4 me .

i will stay strong .

juz for tat person .

(:

how fake i was ·

tat was juz parts 2 make me strong 4 u ·

i wil think maturely ·

i wil act maturely ·

i wil control wad i do ·

i wil do my best ·

i wil everythg 4 tat moment ·

actuali i hope tat u wil b the 1 hu i did reali meant off ·

tel me honestly wad u reali ned nw ·

i juz wan u 2 rmb wad i wan `

it was ur Honesty no matter hw hurts it was .

itz enuf 2 make me hapi wv ur Honesty ·

i juz ned ur words .

appear bec plz ·· :")

:")

I thought itz goin my day even thrs no chance 2 step on 

Korea Music Wave . 

which i reali dream on 2 watch .

i thought i cn hav a gud day after wad i reali did hold on .

never tel tat it was hard on wads goin on /

i thought tat everythg goin 2 be fine if i TRY my best .

i TRIED .

control wad i owayz do .

never use cellphone & comp owayz _

YesH i did .

whn it starts telling me 2 change 

i did think of it & make a decision

:)

its so speechless 2 let myself like tat 

Mayb ?

tis few yrs i admit i made myself suffer lot .

but i stil hav backbone tat will owayz support me .

backbone tat oway wv me . :')

& nw it never happen agn .

:)

however ,

i owayz be strong n go 4 myself .

i dun need ppl 2 depends on 

i dun wan ppl 2 make it up 4 me .

sometimes i would feel my days filled wv fear tat no ones would c 

:)

YesH . 

recently doesn't hav any gud slp 

thinking of so lot sort of thg . 

worried lots of thg .

itz juz on my mind & it was juz on my life :)

many problems 2 doubt '

itz a small matter ?

mind was like puzzledless .

......

i cant continue anymore .

feeling so suffer /

:)

蕭敬騰 - 你 ❤

早给你的 :)

听到这个歌就想着你... 

:')

Jar Of Hearts ❤

Whr to gone ? :) 

..... :'))

我爱的 。

Never ?

Made myself tired agn 2day ...

renew bloggie , find some new appliances , PC-ing whole day after sch .

dun even thinking abt coming exam anyway .

FB was Bored . -.- 

keep on staying alone all d time 

dun even noe wads walking on mind..

dun feel 2 talk 2 anyone else xcept d missing ppl..

sometimes i would feel changes of myself day by day

mayb itz invisible changes .

It was more worst ·· 

Now 

no one knew wad was i'm doin,thinking,seeking for.

Day time full of tiredness `

Nite fill with tears tat awaken me whole nite .

Tried 2 stop . Tried Hard .....

end with no works on it .

How FOOL izit ? 

Yes . :)

changing every time moving .

1 thing i should realise was `

What Does Not Belong 2 Me , Will Never Be Mine .

but hw stuborn i was ?

still standing 4 wad i wan bec .

i should noe it was not mine anymore . ANYMORE !

D tears dripping was being so Unworth ......

but it still goin on like tiz...

it made me 2 make myself lost somethings tat was goin 2 be important 4 my future...

A Sorry 4 myself ? or A Slap 4 myself ?

____

Tiz is an Regret or an Hurt ?

Decision gone .

i was lost .

whr 2 go ...

whr 2 get wad i ned ?

Till nw '

i lost my warm .

i ned it bec so much..

it wil b wad i ned again ?

Will it happen ?

···

【N】 Waiting ♥

wanted 2 noe whr u gone .

whr r u ? 

totally missing u 

cn i noe hw hav u been ?

cuz u never ever tel me da truth of urself .

ur condition .

cuz u never wanna me 2 get worry or u n hurt of it.

i understand

but if i dunno..it will b more hurt,more worryness..

more of wadever u think u dun wanna let me go on..

u totally gone like dust after being blow .

hu blows u ?

me ?

mayb..

I'm sorry ··

but i reali wanted 2 care ur life .

wanted u 2 share all of it wv me .

if u dwn .

at least appear some whr 4 me .

u noe ?

hw hard i m tiz few months ?

covered wv fake smiles . fake laughter . fake hapiness .

wv tears on night stucking 4 my heart painess .

no one could understand da feeling .

no one could comfort me .

xcept u .

but i lost u .

hw i could get d comfort ?

even close fren cant make it 2 me..

hu could make it 4 me ?

the comfort of other is juz temporary..

n it wil gone very soon .

sadness tat i go through ·

i wanted juz let u noe .

cuz only u could more understand my condition .

but hw ?

i hav 2 keep it in heart . 

suffer alone . :)

Til u appear again . 

i'm waiting `

rely of waiting `

wv tears of lonelyness . :) ♥